1978

This picture is almost as blurry as my memory of my parents together. Although my parents didn't get a divorce until I was twelve years old, all of the memories that I have of them together somehow seem unreal.

I remember telling my friend Danielle when I was about eight that my parents would never get a divorce, they would be together forever. I was as sure of that fact as I was of my eye color and the fact that I was too tall. No one in my family had ever gotten divorced (at least in my lifetime). My grandparents on both sides were (and still are) inseparable. Divorce was as foreign to my life as drugs or fancy dinner parties. As the song says, we came from a long line of love.

I thought that my parents were perfect for one another. I thought that they were best friends..and I guess that they were and still are in some crazy way. They just couldn't stay married. Life somehow got in the way. If I have my way (and I usually do) that will never happen to my marriage. I will fight against that with everything that I am. I will rebuild the fractured line of love.

I want my kids to feel that certain about my love for their father and his love for me. I want them to know that we are a team, a unit, one. I want them to know beyond the shadow of a doubt that he is the other side of me, the heart in my heart. I don't want us ever to be blurry to them. I want us to be as real and constant in their lives as the warmth of the sun.